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| Even though I had always been negative, I realized that I have been always looking for excuses in myself on keeping my bad habits. In my opinion, I always have "legit" reasons. Is it just me? I don't get it, am I lazy? or trying to relieve my stress or sadness. I gotta keep reminding myself that excuses are useless, they only help in the short-term, the most are in a few hours. But every time I make excuses for myself, I was always able to convince myself that it's okay. Advice anyone?
Another thing that keeps on bothering me is, I always think I'm wrong. Is this a result from low confidence? I hope not. For example, I keep on thinking, "I wasn't suppose to do this, this is what I should do". I know it depends on the situation but my thinking is always "unlogical", is what I hear from many people. Help please! | | |
| Hello,
I am currently struggling!!! What is it? I don't want to explain. However, every time I try to solve it, it becomes worse. I even try avoiding it. But I realized that avoiding it won't make it go away. I know that it's going to haunt me for the rest of my life! I need it for everything! I need it for school, work and life in general. This is how bad it is ='( . I hate hearing myself complaining but I can't help it. I have no idea where I began with this problem. I've always wondered but I realized there's no point because what's in the past is not going to happen in the future. In other words, I only look into the future because I can't live in the past.
I look around in my life, I noticed that almost no one suffers from this problem. I see and it looks like it just comes naturally, whereas me, I've changed into something that wasn't suppose to happen but it did. Why God? Why did you do this to me?!?! Lol! Okay, I guess I'm starting to blame on others when I don't want to blame it on myself. I guess that's the first stage of problems, trying to blame others rather than myself. But I remember in my Business 100 class that I took at my university, successful people blame themselves. Well, "blame" wasn't the exact words, it was more like "successful people look at their flaws". Yes, this may seem like common sense but I just realized it right before the day I learnt it. I was thinking the day I was learning it, HA ... that's funny, I was just thinking about it yesterday.
But anyways, I want to get support but I feel I should not because I think it will just make the problem worse. So, I have no idea what to do. And you're probably thinking, why the hell would you post this. Well my answer is, I feel if I express myself, I would feel better and MAYBE, yes MAYBE .... in the future, or the NEAR future, I might be able to fix this problem and look back to myself and laugh or have a sense of accomplishment when I read this =D .
Hm, I guess that's a first step, finishing off the weblog with a joke / happy thought.
Btw, I'd also like to wish everyone .... Happy Holidays! =)
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| this blog will be a reminder for me to stop slacking off lol
STOP LISTENING TO FRIENDS ABOUT WHAT SEEMS TO BE OKAY or to RELIEVE STRESS
>>EVERY MINUTE COUNTS! <<
STOP MAKING EXCUSES FOR MYSELF!
what I am doing, is it on the test???
what is happening right now:
-marks are not as well as I want to in school right now
-SCREW EVERYTHING at the moment
-social life
-entertainment
-cellphone
-facebook
-msn
-skype
-what I want the most right now
PASSING EXAMS .... GETTING GOOD MARKS
study
-effectively
-productively
-critically
-spread out the time
-no cramming!!!
exercise the brain by...
-reading
-memorizing exercises
-sudoku?
inspiration
-regretful feeling after exams if I didn't study
-CAREER = LIFE
-lost of routine if not used time productively
-what matters the most
-everything doesn't matter but this, depression later on if not achieved!
-how stressful I will be near exam dates
MAKE A SCHEDULE
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| Why hello! It's been a while since I updated this. I wonder if any of my friends still look at this. I am thinking probably not, the world right now is constantly searching for **new** things and the marketing going on in the world is getting better and better. I can prove this by the change from xanga or any other social networking site to ... FACEBOOK! If you don't know about facebook, then I wonder where you have been. So, if you are new to facebook, I suggest you NOT to try it out! It's strange isn't it? My reason for this is, it is ADDICTING and UNPRODUCTIVE. Yes it is a good social networking site but I find it best to just talk to the people in person or through freecall services such as skype or MSN Messenger even though I still use facebook. Enough about websites, I'll start talking about MY exciting life! I assure you that it's exciting because... I'm started UNIVERSITY right now and I'm 18 years of age! To fill you in, I'm currently studying at Ryerson University majoring in business management. You must be wondering, "did you go to FROSH?", HELL YEA I did. Why wouldn't I? It's a once in a lifetime event where I get to meet people who will be going to my school and who I'd be spending time with within the next four years of my life that is if I survive =/ . FROSH was AMAZING, I met lots of new people and toured around the beautiful city of Toronto. One of my favourite memories was going clubbing on the boat cruise because I LOVE dancing and water? I guess. It was formal night, so we got to dress up! I don't know about you but for me, as a girl I lovee to pretty myself up and see others in their sexy or formal outfits, it adds a bit my flavour to the atmosphere. Some things I noticed about university life: -parties are every weekend! -a lot more work / readings to do -professors are MUCH more interesting than high school teachers - this actual made me love school once again! -a lot more people -you can meet anyone you want to meet! -school rules are strict, you either obey them or suffer serious consequences and that gets nasty! -more freedom -less time in school -time management is a necessary skill -a lot more help is avaliable -competition! .... since there is a lot more people, it is harder to stand out from the rest academically and also ... sexually? sorry I meant love wise haha -you have to take care of yourself, profs don't care if you come to class or not -I have a lot more points ---> I hope this helps for people who want to know the university life. Enjoy =)
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